Unfair is my word.. For now. I just realise no one will be  there for me on the day.. My day... I hate it . Why life has to be so unfair for me?!~~~ Cant i just be happy on that day? Just fuck u people!!

Hmm, i wonder what should i scream and shout about...
Ohh, yes.. I almost forget.. to those who wanted to see my new and kinda of weird blog, PLS, go to dead silence.onsugar.com.... i did it last night .. cause i thought my blog is like so ruin.. Duhh it is.. but now it is better and a bit normal... plain , i mean... Hmm, What else shall i scream and shout about... Oh yes... 5 more days.. Haizz,,, Actually im not looking forward to it.. At all! yeah.. Dun bother.. i just dun bother like other people do.. yeah .. Oh well , i will blog at my second blog.. So just tag me there, aites? :D
Chaos , peeps!:D

lalasss~~~ I fixed my phone! yea! I mean my replacement phone... Yepp , Yepp...
haizzz.. But i felt no difference.. Im still the way im.. WHAT THE heck... So sad... so tired~~~









snores~~~ 

Tomorrow maybe... willl be a better day... ( :

uh'huh...

Im so tired. Tired of having this life.. I dun want to continue this anymore... I just hope things will just go back to normal.. Im so tired.. Im so lonely .. Cant continue anymore... Im just lonely,, I dont have much friends behind my back .. I cant take your stuppid advice.. It work for you but not for me... Not for me.... No longer ... Not anymore..




I just hate this life. this stuppid life.!

im so suayy..

What the heckkk..

My replacement phone for like 1 month , could not slide.... Stupp Sonny Ericsson Phone

I bet im so suayy


SO SUAY!!!!! 

 

I message THE HE yesterday.. We talk for so long.. I duno why i ask a lot of stupp question such as like:

I said:when we broke up do you like miss mee? 
He said:Yes, i do...


Iike suddenly cry.. All this while he does miss me once.. My mistake.. I thought he doesnt at all... How could i think that way.? I mean i thought he hated me cause we walk in a separate ways. 

Now , I bet he has move on... No longer Thinks about me... 

seriously , i do miss him... Not once but all my life..


I regret for not realizing he has been there for me throughout my life.. 

All i know im so stuupp and foolish...

SORRY~~~~

what the heck!!! That stupp CY Complained about my design .. Stupp instructor.. Is not like as if HES wearing it.. Everyone said its OK but u just ruin it... Then you think that u are good in drawing.. Hah.. LOL... What a bad day! Why cant things turn the way I wanted... 

Then THE HE.. Another person for your INFO... THE HE promised me that he wont ignore me again... Screw him.. I hope he just wont loose that book of that Mr Chen.. Gave us for our lesson at that time... What to do.. I put all my trust in him. So sad. I hope he will return for me the book to Mr Chen.. Hope so..

Hmm, OMG.. My friend told me that there is religious class today.. WTH.. Im so tired.. Dun want to go.. But what to do.. I must go.. It's like a good thing to do....im sure today i wont be having sleepless night... Yay! I will sleep soundly... ZZZZzzzzZZZ~~~~


Haha, anyway i will blog till around 7:45PM.. Yepp yepp ... Im so tired.. I wanna sleep~~~~~~~




Snoressss~~~ZZZZzzzZZZ


OK... I think i will catch a nap... ZZZzzzZZZZ~~~~ 




Snores~




Chaos! Snores~ 


CHAOS ppl.. Wanna catch a nap~~


SNORES~~~~~~~

I duno why i felt so sad... Today sucks. hmm. I think today it's because terrifying dream. It's was so scary and it was real... I just dun wanna know.. Today i will be going to school for guitar.. Im planning to meet up with Charlotte and Sabrina.. Sab will be late.. Duno why. Today i have to hand in my design to the Seniors...i wonder what people will think of it .. It was quite... Nevermind... Hmm , i must check today's weather.. -.-'''
So that i could bring my umbrella , so that no one will get drenched like that time. Maybe i could fetch them. Yepp yepp.. Hmm.. Kkk.. I must check the weather now.. 

Hmm. It's 27 degrees celcius.. Mostly cloudy... No rain!!! I want rain!!! I love rain!!! I want the world to be pouring for like hour or minutes!!! 





But i really want a cold weather.... Ohh.. Thats why i felt so sad .. No rain.. What the hecks...-.-''''

Im just tired .. Fucking tired. Dun want to continue this no more. Fucking hating this. Im just tired of myself. And looking at you drifting away from me....



SO tired....-.-'''

Hmm, yesterday during guitar it rained heavily as ever.. Few of my friends got wet in the rained -.-.'''
Hmm, i was given a task to design a design for our Guitar- tee.. Im not to sure whether its a nice looking design.. Well we planned everything.. Me , Charlotte , and other two seniors .. Yepp it's nice to me.. But im not to sure for the others... But before the guitar lessons starts i hurt my knee and i go around asking for plasters-.-'''
Haha stupp right? Hmm, we as in me and Charlotte , made Sabrina wait at Mac'd.. For at least ! hour.. If you're reading this, IM super sorry.. I hope you understand that we got "short" meeting in school... Haha..

Then when i get home i, i went to do the usual stuff, blah blah , boring, I when online , then some freak when offline after that person saw me online ... ONE word WHATEVER.. You are just trying to run away from the fact that i TURN you away. I have to.. Im just tired of you. Im over you. You just ruined my day..

I need something to do... Hmm, just now i tried playing the intro of "still got the blues" by "Gary Moore" song... 1998 song. Hmm, though i do not have electric guitar but i tried with acoustic guitar.. Hmm, sound the same.. My grandaddy really want to buy for me one.. Hmm, but i think , i rather save money and buy on my own.. Dont want to waste his money . Yea, wait till im older then, i will be able to play .. Must learn. I really need someone to teach me.. I know who can play... but.. FAT hope , elyana.. Like real his gonna teach you.. when his nobody to me... I know he's also trying to learn too.. But, i know that one day , he will be a PRO guitarist. Support him all the way. ( :

Hmm... Today , im a bit CRAZY... Hmm, i got nothing better to do... Seriously , before i went to my stuppp religion class which i dreaded to go ... I did something stupp.. Like....Taking pictures with cookie monSTAR! Hehe!

Its been such a long time since i blog.
Well today was nice day. I was like shopping all day. With my family. Haha :D
Hehe. Uhhh, i bought many dresses for myself.... "that is so unusual of me." Yepp , dont usually wear dresses.. What to do ... Im changed... Haha.. So happy. Grandad bought my Grananny A 100$+++ SMALL HANDBAG ...
Wow , Hmm , i thought its was funny , but they are so sweet old couple... And its like my Grananny belated birthday present. I wish when i got married , I hope my husband will like be as sweet as my grandad... Haha "FAT HOPE , ELY"
Haha , hope it will just came true. Hope so. Yepp Yepp..
Hmmm , i wonder this few days can never sleep -.-"'
Must be the bad dreams im experiencing now..  So much pain to the dreams...-.-'''
Haha ... Not sharing. -.-''''
Hmm, well i like to write some more but im very lazy LOL.-.-'''
Hehes
CHAO!:D

If you think im like that. Why don't you reflect on yourself? i dun want to start a fight. Why must you start it? Whats wrong with you. Im trying to change and you?
You have change so much. I dun want to say it. I dun want to say your mistakes . I , myself , have mistakes.
I've had enough with this. I took my punishment of being unfaithful and all. Stop luhh. You think you can gain something by scolding me and alll?

who are you? You are nobody to me. How could you scold me? Then if you think im so bad in everyone eyes , what about you? why jage tepi kain org? I have everything already. Dont try to ruin my life , boleh tak? Stop luhh. Dont this to me. Do it for your own. Marah me for what, nak dapat dosa? Nak sangat? Dont use your friends as your backings. I dont want to start a fight. I just want to be normal. I hate being like this. Asal tak kesian kan org? Why be so pathetic by scolding me ? Dont be so pathetic luhh. For what i want to  act , what i can gain from it? FAME? Sorry luhhh. Im not interested in you any more... i won't care even if you die infront of my eyes. Not tryibng to curse you . But it's a fact.

Sorry if i offend you in any way. I want to taubat.

If can you to.

Assalamualaikum.

Im so happy today! Why? 'Cause today got guitar lesson... Yea! Finally i could meet up my with friends... so happy.. Last night was a nice thing to talk to.. BuT too bad  is private.... HEHE must not talk about it..... HE might know..... hehe...

Well, this wish is for my darling BESTIE!!!


Samm, i hope you read this because i want to wish you a happpy birthday to you in advance...
i remembered your birthday .. You should remember my tooo... ohk???
YOU must remember!!!
no luhh just kidding..  Dont have to remember.. I dont want to be an ungrateful bestie that force you to remember...(:
talk to you later
alrightiez....!!!

Wow , today is my quite boring day... DUHHH... i ask HIM  to online today... But HE said HE was busy. Only tomorrow HE could online. Duno luhh... Thats one thing weird about me... I dont understand why i like HIM... HEs just a normal guy not so special.. Not hot.. Not cute. Sweet and Friendly are HIS only personality. Oh i weonder why i like HIM so much.... i wonder why..
Another personality is that HE is EMO ...like me -.-'''
But im  trying to change and THATs ME...
yupp.. Dont think negatively about me.. PLSSSS.. i beg you.. dont think of me that way, im trying to change..
YOU know who you are..
just give me a bit time..
THAKyou..

Today its sunday, O8.11.2009,2:19PM


I got so many things to tell. Hmm , let me start from yesterday night. Hmm, yesterday was a great thing to talk about.. With all the delicacy starring at me..!!!
first thing: sis and i were hungry. No food were left behind from dinner. Mum called the Mc Donald's delivery line. She kept repeating her orders... -.-'''
Our orders were total up and it cost us $34.50. -.-'''
she kept asking why is it so expensive...
one HOUR later. We received our food. with the nice smelling rose up to my nose. It tickles. Hmm, i was shock when i saw three Filet O'Fish burger starring at me, whereas i remembered that mum ordered two of it -.-'''... ONLY!!!!
Mum said tthat " OMG , 30 bucks all gone, in a blink of an eye"
shockinly, my sis ask my mum whether she ordered two MC spicy-s...
-.-'''
she... Suddenly gone quiet.. and ate her burger..
FYI, i ate two burgers, HEHE... cause .... during dinner i don't ate that much... and i was hungry... LOL



second thing:I get to digged some stories... From a PERSON ... obvious..
It's PRIVATE.. All i can tell you that .... The PERSON gossips about a GAL that i don't reallly like....



3rd thing, which is today:NOTHING, its pratically boring...
-.-''' ...

Yet another boring day . OMG luhh. Yupp. Haiya. so sad. ):
Wating for my best friends to talk to me. Duhh, Hmm , three more days to samm' birthday I think. Not to sure .. Well , i wonder what to get for him.. Since HEsmy BESTIE for life.. HAHA... Just wish him will do.. HAHA.. (:
But POOR him luhh.. Must get something for him. HEHE... I feel like... Takking him for lunch..
HEHE!!! LOL!!! (:
just kidding.. no money or what..
I Wonder what to give him luh... HEHE.
so sad..
must plan luhh..
(:

I met someone new today... Hes special, not really... I don't know him that well and i could he's special... Yea, im crazy for today... im only stressed out , not that much. Well, i start to like him.. OMG... Hes cute but not hot... YESH.... I like him!!!!!!! well, hmm, i hope he doesn't know that i like him.... AND, i hope he doesn't read my blog... I will be dead if he read this.... hope so he doesn't.... BY TH WAY , to all the people who read my blog , pls don't think is the old him...
i don't wanna to talk about him. He isn't mine!!!!
I don't love you no more!!!!
i only like this guy now ... No more the old him!!! yesh, i long forget about you... ):

HMM... Today, a weird thing happened to me. I would't want talk about it .. Don't bother. Hmmmmmmm... yea , yet another boring day... Yea i wish go out with my friends... Yesh , with my friends... and not other person you think i want to go out with. Not anymore.... Hmm .. you think what shall i do today??? Play HABBO? very lazy... chat with sabrina or samuel??? nah, they not at home... One went to tuition , another one went to primary sch.. yesh.. no one to talk to.. in fact i do have some friends to talk to... yea, but they either talk something boring OR they gossip... NO offence... why am i given a second chance to renew and to have a second life.. ?? yea , what ever it is im BORED for GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another day with no one beside me.. im super bored. With only facebook and habbo to look or to play.. I wish someone new here like my friend's friend... hope could talk to them. Is it reallly because of the world is ending that my life became so boring as ever..??
why men??? I mean , ya , icant possibly bblame the whole world of what is going on... yea.. Hope he's here to comfort me and all. seriously... LIFE sucks....

Today is my boring day. So lonely with no one by my side.. I was wondering shall i add HIM in my facebook?? Or add him to my MSN... OR much better dont add HIM at all. Well , what he might think?? he will think that " oh this girl got nothing better to do" yea , he will definitely ignore me for life.. what a disaster. I hope this things neever happened before ... Put me to a lot of stress. And make me fail my mission to go express at first.. Now i ended stuck in the same stream... yea , i envy a lot of people who succesfully went there ... wow.... i promised him that i will go to express but i failed to do so.. im sorry... im..