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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I wanna cry and feel like like sleeping tilll I wont woke up forever i duno why all of sudden i began to miss you.. and for no reason why i couldnt close my eyes in peace. i just feel like sleeping and never wake up. I kept finding reasons to talk to you. i just cant keep going on... i wish this was just a dream that is hurting me like reality . i want to close my eyes , but i kept tearing up.. I thought of changing myself but ... i just cant.. i cant .. i look myself in the mirror and trying to ask myself.. Is that me ? why? why do i look like a piece of shit? why do i look like a dead body standing on its feet? why i dont recognized myself? i look so different.. I duno who am i anymore.. Im so helpless., i cared for you but u seems to like ignored me or you dont even realized it. i want you back on my side but you are drifting away . so far away.... im just like a fucking bitch that doesnt know reality!! im just like a fucking jerk who doesnt know herself I HATE MYSELF i cant take your advice of that im not alone.. im just alone.. I just miss you.. P.S I LOVE YOU.....
3:19 AM
Yours truly. elyana |
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